Kindness and Generousity

So tonight/today i was on my favorite image/b/oard, in a baww thread, and i found humanity at its best, and before it 404'd they opened a tinychat for those of us in the thread and here is what i saw:

[6:57] Topic: Baw. w
[6:57] eh: crying on the inside
[6:57] eh: I hate myself.
[6:57] bawwwanon: femanon, you aren't the one with the five year old are you?
[6:57] poemguy: me to man
[6:57] poop: when the thread 404s, it will take a piece of me with it.
[6:57] femanon: Nah, that's not me.
[6:57] anon: don't hate yourself
[6:57] bawwwanon: because I have some shit she needs to hear.
[6:57] bawwwanon: ok
[6:57] guest-28857 changed nickname to iamsadinnj
[6:58] poop: pfffffffffffffffttttttttttttttt
[6:58] ughlie: you don't mean me do you, I was called femanon
[6:58] iamsadinnj: hell fellow sad/depresed people
[6:58] bawwwanon: dunno, seems there were a few femanons in the thread
[6:58] revived: Depressed?
[6:58] bawwwanon: if your'e the one who wants to kill herself and has a five year old, I mean you
[6:58] anonymous: Greetings equally sad anon.
[6:58] revived: Fuck no, I think it's hilarious.
[6:58] revived: Life is a joke, and it's on you.
[6:59] poemguy: and 404
[6:59] poop: gone
[6:59] ughlie: but i don't have a kid, but i am going to kill myself
[6:59] bawwwanon: sigh
[6:59] guest-28882 entered the room
[6:59] bawwwanon: Are you the one going to sit on the rock?
[6:59] poop: poop
[6:59] femanon: Awww :( I hope that guy got my e-mail address before it 404'd
[6:59] anonymous: Kill yourself?
[6:59] anonymous: Why?
[6:59] guest-28882 changed nickname to hassuranon
[6:59] ughlie: ya, no kid though, i was talking about my dad in the first post, never mentioned a kid
[6:59] bawwwanon: I hope that girl saw my post before it 404'd
[6:59] bawwwanon: okay, I confused you for her
[6:59] bawwwanon: lol
[6:59] poemguy: im shure she did
[6:59] bawwwanon: Hi
[7:00] poop: the greatest victory is not letting the shit beat you
[7:00] femanon: Haha, it's all good
[7:00] bawwwanon: You wrote me back and said "I was talking about my dad, I don't have a kid."
[7:00] poop: rest in peace Sarah. you were an angel.
[7:00] bawwwanon: I unfortunately didn't see your post
[7:00] poemguy: as i said dont let the world win if it does.... you have let the world win 1 more time the
[7:00] ughlie: it's alright
[7:00] poemguy: then it should have*
[7:00] bawwwanon: What's wrong, ughlie?
[7:01] iamsadinnj: i was turned away from the military about a week ago, they told me its because i look diff
[7:01] ughlie: too much, can't handle it, the therapist can't either, everything is going no where
[7:01] poop: is the herpes guy here? or the aids guy?
[7:01] bawwwanon: I liked the herpes guy
[7:01] bawwwanon: what is "too much"?
[7:01] poemguy: iamsad man im joining up becuse i feel that all i can do with my self ha... cormen navy
[7:01] anonymous: Nothing is ever too much. This is some bullshit motivational crap, but there's never
[7:02] anonymous: a problem you can't solve.
[7:02] revived: iamsadinnj, go to a different recruiter.
[7:02] poemguy: ya
[7:02] bawwwanon: yes, NJ
[7:02] bawwwanon: or a different branch
[7:02] poemguy: or diff branch
[7:02] poemguy: haha
[7:02] revived: Corpsman? Good man.
[7:02] bawwwanon: lol same
[7:02] poemguy: thanks :)
[7:02] ughlie: the eating disorder that's killing me, my parents who disowned me
[7:02] iamsadinnj: i did imwas rejected by the navy three times all for the same reason
[7:02] femanon: Try the Air Force, they take more than the others do.
[7:02] hassuranon: I tried to join service once.
[7:02] ughlie: they don't even look at me
[7:02] poop: or don't be in the military. maybe its a sign.
[7:02] bawwwanon: wait...you're going to college right?
[7:02] poemguy: after navy i am
[7:03] bawwwanon: ughlie I mean
[7:03] poemguy: as a corpsmen tho i might not maybe ill go carrear haha
[7:03] poop: poop
[7:03] anonymous: What's your eating disorder?
[7:03] bawwwanon: career navy isn't so bad
[7:03] ughlie: i'm in college now, on loans with interest
[7:03] bawwwanon: career af is the way to go, it's a breeze
[7:03] iamsadinnj: not an eating disorder, i have a slight concaved chest
[7:03] revived: The Air Force is filled with people who just bitch all day.
[7:03] bawwwanon: i did reply to you, just got your stuff mixed up with someone else's too
[7:03] revived: Trust me.
[7:04] bawwwanon: i know revived, my dad was career af
[7:04] poop: pffffffffffffftttttttttt
[7:04] bawwwanon: OMG THE CABLE IS OUT
[7:04] revived: Reservists are the worst.
[7:04] ughlie: anorexic behavior with 1 week interludes of bulimia
[7:04] ughlie: every 4 months or so
[7:04] poop: i have been floating the air biscuits
[7:04] poemguy: ug man :(
[7:04] femanon: Oh yay! He got my e-mail address :)
[7:04] ughlie: i hatem yself
[7:04] bawwwanon: I was telling you in one of my threads that my husband and I have $40 of loans to pay
[7:04] ughlie: myself
[7:04] bawwwanon: $40k i mean
[7:04] poemguy: damn :(
[7:05] bawwwanon: it sucks but it's good for your credit believe it or not
[7:05] poemguy: see everythign is money
[7:05] poop: is this mainly femanons?
[7:05] guest-28977 entered the room
[7:05] bawwwanon: i refuse to admit being femanon
[7:05] anon: LOL
[7:05] guest-28977 changed nickname to huganon
[7:05] anonymous: Yeah, Bawwanon, funny enough paying off my loans has been the only thing keeping my credit
[7:05] anon: yeah same
[7:05] anonymous: up.
[7:05] poemguy: ok here whos a fem?
[7:05] bawwwanon: maybe i am, maybe i'm not
[7:05] poemguy: ok your a cool person how that?
[7:05] bawwwanon: me too anonymous
[7:06] anon: fuck that . i'm a girl hate on me if you want
[7:06] ughlie: i'm not going to have a relationship, i have to pay it myself, i can't pay for any therapy
[7:06] poemguy: whyd i hate you?
[7:06] poop: i wish i had a vagina...in my face right now. :)
[7:06] poemguy: ha
[7:06] femanon: Haha
[7:06] anonymous: This chat is from a baw thread.
[7:06] ughlie: it's been going on for so many years, i wake up with weird hart rythms
[7:06] bawwwanon: none of us want to admit it because one of you will be smart and ask for tits
[7:06] anonymous: We're not going to hate one anyone I don't think.
[7:06] hassuranon: Anyone else get the feeling when you're up too late, that despite the fact that the sun is
[7:06] ughlie: and shake and spontaneously throw up sometime, i have to stop this
[7:06] huganon: Not after that baww thread. :(
[7:06] revived: I just wish I could hold her again.
[7:06] ughlie: one way or another, i did this to myself
[7:07] bawwwanon: ughlie, I know this isn't the first time you've heard someone tell you to hang on...you've
[7:07] hassuranon: rising, that it would stay dark, so you could pretend that the world was only yours.
[7:07] poemguy: god i hate that rule... tits or gtfo... im sorry but can we remove that rule?
[7:07] bawwwanon: dealt with this a while I imagine
[7:07] guest-29001 entered the room
[7:07] poemguy: ha
[7:07] guest-29001 changed nickname to looko
[7:07] femanon: Seriously, I don't like it either...
[7:07] bawwwanon: I'd love to poem
[7:07] ughlie: since my 2nd year at highschool
[7:07] bawwwanon: if you're in school there is a counselor that is provided free of charge
[7:07] poop: RIP Sarah
[7:07] anonymous: Ughlie, it sounds like you just need to either find some real source of willpower
[7:07] anon: this isn't /b/ this is epicbaw tiny chat
[7:07] bawwwanon: depends on the school how many free visits you get
[7:07] hassuranon: Am I the only one who loves that time of night when you feel alone in the world?
[7:07] anonymous: Or a friend to sit with you.
[7:07] revived: Yeah.
[7:08] revived: I get that a lot.
[7:08] ughlie: i don't have any real life friends
[7:08] poemguy: we dont have some one
[7:08] anon: it's the reason why i stay up ridiclously late every night
[7:08] revived: I sometimes go to the beach at 4 AM.
[7:08] huganon: You aren't, hassuranon.
[7:08] revived: Because all the bars and clubs are cleared out.
[7:08] anon: well that and so that i can justifiably sleep in all day
[7:08] bawwwanon: where do you live ughlie? no city, just your state
[7:08] hassuranon: I wish I had a beach neaarby.
[7:08] ughlie: i hate on at highschool, none in college though, and i tried will power
[7:08] hassuranon: I would do that every night.
[7:08] anonymous: Alright, well, you need to find some way to help yourself.
[7:08] ughlie: wisconsin
[7:08] bawwwanon: oooh. I lived in appleton a long time ago
[7:08] femanon: Another anon just sent me an e-mail, it made me cry. Can I post it?
[7:08] revived: Or go to the Everglades and be able to stare for miles in every direction without a single
[7:08] poemguy: ya
[7:08] femanon: In a good way, that is
[7:08] revived: Human in sight.
[7:08] anonymous: Sure, Fem.
[7:08] bawwwanon: post away femanon
[7:08] huganon: Go for it. :)
[7:09] hassuranon: Go for it.
[7:09] femanon: This is not the anon you were looking to help, but I wanted to thank you for the courage t
[7:09] bawwwanon: before you get eaten by a python that is, revived
[7:09] femanon: Ah, it didn't all fit, hold on
[7:09] revived: I have my weapon.
[7:09] hassuranon: I would help you, but I think it would get confusing going between your
[7:09] bawwwanon: ughlie, are you going to a UW school?
[7:09] revived: I usually sling my AR-15 or 870.
[7:09] hassuranon: inbox and my sent folder.
[7:09] ughlie: yeah
[7:10] bawwwanon: when I was up there, if I remember correctly, they provide 12 free visits a year
[7:10] bawwwanon: now, this was 1998 so it may have changed
[7:10] poop: you are 34?
[7:10] bawwwanon: I'm 31
[7:10] femanon: You're here anyways. Thank you, that e-mail made my night :)
[7:10] poop: poop
[7:10] femanon: Er, morning :)
[7:10] hassuranon: Then it has made mine as well.
[7:10] bawwwanon: <--- oldfag is old
[7:10] revived: I'm only 21.
[7:11] poop: Sarah was 24
[7:11] bawwwanon: 21 is a good age
[7:11] huganon: That was wonderful, femanon. :)
[7:11] bawwwanon: what happened to sarah?
[7:11] guest-29056 entered the room
[7:11] bawwwanon: i'm glad you got that email femanon
[7:11] poop: did in an auto accident earlier in the evening
[7:11] guest-29059 entered the room
[7:11] guest-29059 changed nickname to poemguy
[7:11] poop: died :(
[7:11] poemguy: ninternet fail
[7:11] guest-29056 changed nickname to random
[7:11] bawwwanon: i'm really sorry
[7:11] femanon: I am too :) I always try to reach out. I myself have suffered.
[7:11] hassuranon: It may have seemed like a small act of empathy to some, but it always touches me.
[7:11] anonymous: Ughlie, would it help if you had someone to call when you were about to do something?
[7:12] huganon: I'm so sorry. That makes my heart ache about Sarah.
[7:12] poemguy: ya man :( that kills me
[7:12] poop: just trying to keep my mind off of it!!! I can't though.
[7:12] bawwwanon: ughlie, I don't know if you're in milwaukee, and you don't have to tell me, but there were
[7:12] bawwwanon: a lot of resources there when I was up in WI
[7:12] poop: and i can't sleep
[7:12] femanon: :(
[7:12] ughlie: i think it would distract me if someone called me
[7:12] ughlie: and i would just drag on
[7:12] ughlie: waiting
[7:13] bawwwanon: that's the point ughlie, you need distraction when you think like that
[7:13] bawwwanon: you have to get through it
[7:13] anonymous: Yeah.
[7:13] hassuranon: Hey femanon, thanks for not being a troll. I more than halfway expected a hatemail reply.
[7:13] anonymous: Seriously, if you want, I can give you my number and you can call me.
[7:13] anonymous: When you feel something comig on.
[7:13] bawwwanon: anonymous, you are a gem of a person
[7:13] anonymous: coming*
[7:13] huganon: I don't think there's going to be a hatemail in this group.
[7:13] guest-29088 entered the room
[7:13] revived: Be back in a bit.
[7:13] poemguy: i dont think any us are trolls thank god
[7:13] femanon: Haha, you're welcome. I would never send anyone hate mail, especiallly after recieving
[7:13] guest-29088 changed nickname to z
[7:13] bawwwanon: i don't either
[7:13] femanon: such a nice one :)
[7:13] huganon: Okay, revived. :)
[7:14] hassuranon: :)
[7:14] revived: Dad's grave needs tending.
[7:14] iamsadinnj: :(
[7:14] femanon: :(
[7:14] anonymous: There's too much shit in the world to not try and be nice, at least, Baww.
[7:14] poemguy: -_- :(
[7:14] huganon: ;_;
[7:14] bawwwanon: i can't fucking be hurr durr all the time. sometimes shit calls for seriousness.
[7:14] hassuranon: lol
[7:14] huganon: Exactly. We all make a difference in someone's life, whether we mean to or not.
[7:15] femanon: True words.
[7:15] poemguy: just hope its a +
[7:15] anonymous: I'm serious, Ughlie, is that something you think you'd want?
[7:15] bawwwanon: if anybody i tried to help was trolling, well fuck, it's not on me.
[7:15] poop: I am wondering when I will be able to sleep next.
[7:15] poop: Never felt this alone.
[7:16] poemguy: you and me
[7:16] poemguy: havent slept in 3
[7:16] femanon: If you need someone to talk to, I'll give you my contact info.
[7:16] bawwwanon: Ughlie, you do need a distraction when you are feeling like you want to end it all.
[7:16] poemguy: ya
[7:16] bawwwanon: I know you think it drags it out, but so what?
[7:16] huganon: I don't blame you, poop. I can't begin to imagine how you're feeling.
[7:16] poemguy: i try to always be talking to people
[7:16] poop: I just need to go away for awhile. Somewhere far away.
[7:16] ughlie: thankyou so much, but i'm sorry, i so sorry, your such i nice person
[7:16] anonymous: Fuck it. Here, 937-623-3307, if anyone needs anything, I can at least listen.
[7:16] ughlie: i don't see an end to this
[7:16] bawwwanon: The end to this is to keep on going
[7:16] bawwwanon: I'm serious
[7:16] anonymous: Now watch as I get a shit ton of sign ups around the internet =P
[7:17] femanon: Well, come to Austin, TX. I'd love to help you out.
[7:17] bawwwanon: I've been right where you are, not the same things happened to me, but I've been there
[7:17] poemguy: thanks anom...
[7:17] bawwwanon: I've had two stays in a mental institution
[7:17] ughlie: sorry
[7:17] bawwwanon: the end to it is to keep going
[7:17] bawwwanon: It's okay, you don't have to be sorry, I'm thankful fo rit
[7:17] revived: And can't walk.
[7:17] bawwwanon: You'll get through school and you'll find a job.
[7:18] iamsadinnj: does anyone mind if i post this on my blog? trpeeps from b actually bein nice?
[7:18] revived: Hard tile + falling = sucks.
[7:18] bawwwanon: The bills seem huge now, I know.
[7:18] bawwwanon: Fine with me NJ
[7:18] poemguy: na man i dont mind the post
[7:18] femanon: That's fine with me :)
[7:18] hassuranon: please do nj.
[7:18] huganon: Go for it. :)
[7:18] anonymous: No problems here.
[7:18] iamsadinnj: it shall be done

And so it went on like that for many hours until I decided to sleep. I wanted to share this because it made me happy to see that random strangers could be so respectful and generous to one another and i wanted to show any and all of my readers or otherwise who have read this. thank you, and goodnight.

Women

They suck. I mean no pun by that, let me elaborate, I hate females, I find a woman I would like to date and what happens? Shes stuck up on someone, shes not 'into' me, we're 'too good of friends', these are not as insulting as when i got turned down for having red hair, and i quote, 'you're cute but i hate red hair, sorry.' Tell me people is it just me? Or am I just that guy who's never going to have a family of his own? I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. Or am I doing it right and women are just shallow and uninterested in the 'average Joe'. I'm serious females I want to know, please tell me.

on a different note, I figured i need to start being awake when the suns up so I had to pull an all-nighter tonight or um today i guess.

I should be starting at the Sony plant soon, this is exciting, if i make enough there I wont have to be at taco bell as much, which has its ups and downs, but normal day work would be nice.

I was informed at work the other day by Jim that he and another co-worker had been discussing me one day, and after about 2 hours of my pestering he decided to tell me what they had discussed. Jim and Amanda, had been discussing which one of them could get into my pants first, (Jim thinks of the oddest things by the way) and neither of them could figure out well if I was straight. I cleared things up by informing Jim that I am indeed straight, and then i took revenge by making fun of how he is fat and married and I am not.

Well that's all i have for you all tonight, I mean this morning, so till next time, fuck women, and Moe Bob, answer your fucking phone.

I am Offically Nocturnal

So at my job i work the 'closing' shift, which means i work almost every night till about 4 am. Well this has made my sleep schedule reverse, it is right now 5:33 am, and I am not tired. I will not fall asleep till about 7 am and not get up until about 6 pm. This does not bother me however, because the people i work with are a funny bunch, just the other day I was told to go open the small freezer at about 12 am and get some potatoes, I open the freezer and I am greeted not by cold potatoes but by my 300 lbs. manager Jim screaming like a little girl. This is just one of the many reasons, I love my job and my new sleep schedule.

On another note, my close friend who is currently out of the state parading around in waterfalls and having a great time with 'nature' needs to come home, because she is one of the few females i can still stand.

Well until next time, I guess I'll say goodbye to all of you strangers or otherwise readers.

lets start this shit off with a warning

By warning, i mean a few things that may make you not want to read this blog. I curse, a lot, I'm an asshole, and I'm usually a bit brief in everything, meaning my posts will be short. Now that we got that out of the way let me tell you about a very funny night at a usually not so funny place. I spent the night with russ, rob, joe, and jimmy, we sat around ane played portal and just bsed around till about 6 am. within this time period, jimmy was the funniest man in the knonw universe, which is very unusual for him, the usually calm collected jimmy was hyper and loopy.

Me; no russ i will not suck your feet
jimmy;i will

and at another point,

me; jimmy imma sleep on top of you tonight
jimmy;its the closest ill ever get to sex so im down

this is the funniest ive ever heard him. well im done with this post so bye bye till next time.